As I embark on a Residency in Motherhood in this time of profound isolation and uncertainty I am confronted with questions.
What can I make using the materials I already have?
How can I participate in a community?
What new ways of interacting can we invent?
How the hell do I collaborate with my defiant 6 year old?!
Here is how it goes:
If she knows I am intentionally working towards a goal she will work against it.
If I come at this with a plan, I will want to control it.
If I want to control it, my daughter with sabotage it.
If my daughter sabotages it, I will get frustrated.
If I get frustrated, everyone has a bad day.
I need to let go of control.
Wouldn’t it be nice if it was that easy though? But it is not. I am a controlling person, this is not going to change.
So I need to balance maintaining control in the small moments available to me and letting go of control when I am with my daughter.
Enter my rituals.
Check back in tomorrow to see documentation of some rituals that keep me sane.