Artist Residency in Motherhood Weekly Progress Report.
Today ends the fifth week of my Artist Residency in Motherhood and I locked myself in the bathroom.
The lock down has hurtled me back to my postpartum experience. The constant “tension between independence and dependence, between self-assertion and self-abnegation and between love and hate” is overwhelming. (p.11, Parker)
Weekend goal: re-read Mother Love /Mother Hate by Rozsika Parker.
The difference between lock down and postpartum is that now my child can assert herself and express her identity in opposition to mine verbally.
Redemption is in the fact “that conflicts generated by maternal ambivalence are potentially creative.” (preface, Parker)
In the studio this week—–
Playing with text collage, quote by Aeon.
Dryer lint paper continued. Laying damp paper over bodily care objects to create ghostly sculptures. Mother/Daughter pairs.
Knitting continued. Working on creating a body size piece of knitting that I will use to scrub the floor.
Daily maternal movements stitch journal progress.